I will never understand why this happened to us or any other family but I’m looking on the bright side. I’m grateful for my new circle of friends that includes other families that are managing this same diagnosis. We support each other; we understand; we laugh; we cry; we celebrate. Friends and the community have stepped in time and time again to keep our spirits high and take care of us. My boyfriend comforts me when I burst into tears walking down the street because I see a 5-year old boy that reminds me of Jackson. I know I’m sick of cancer and he must be too but he never stops supporting me. This is unfair for siblings too yet Jackson’s sister Cailin has matured and developed the skill of empathy at a young age. I’ve learned that just when you think you have nothing left a power deep within emerges to give you strength because you are a mom and that’s what mom’s do. WhatsApp download
Most of all I’m impressed with Jackson. He is enduring what the doctors tell me is the most grueling treatment protocol there is, yet he still smiles for the camera and says “please” and “thank you” to the doctors and nurses (most of the time J). He told me yesterday that he thinks cancer has changed him because he can no longer watch violent movies or people suffering (my fault – we were watching Rocky IV because I was trying to find something motivational!). That’s only the beginning of how cancer has changed him and I’m grateful for the future to see what else this exceptional and brave young man will conquer. gbwhatsapp
I’ve stopped wondering or hoping when things will go back to “normal.” In fact, I no longer want them to.